There are so many things I wish I could one and done. Taxes. Organizing the pantry. Completing my to-do list. Getting upset over things that aren’t a big deal. Forgiveness. They all get to me, but especially forgiveness. It’s hard when you’ve prayed and prayed and you think you’re over something. Or someone. Only to have their name pop up in your mind, or in conversation, or to see them in person, and all the feels return. But not the good kind of feels.
In the mornings I like to get up early to walk and pray. On a recent walk, I prayed for someone I didn’t want to pray for. Which led me to pray for someone else I didn’t feel like praying for. And another. And another. I made sure to let God know how I felt, and He made sure to let me know that my obedience is more important than my wants. And my feelings of wanting to see Him work things out according to how I think they should go is less important than me knowing He works all things out in His timing.
As much as I wish I could get over things more quickly, I’m an overthinker. I even overthink that I’m overthinking! I had a thought about how, if God has already gotten to me, it’s harder for others to get to me. Translation – if I’m doing what God wants me to do and I’m good with him, I have less energy for others to get to me. There’s also a little less energy for what they’ve said or done get to me.
“And be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving one another, just as God also forgave you in Christ.” Ephesians 4:32.