I am learning about prayer and learning about faith; that the Lord will not give me what I’m not ready to receive.

My 12-year-old son has wanted to do certain things with me in regard to making movies, but he doesn’t fully understand what goes into the whole picture of making a film. He was involved in this most recent movie Overcomer that we did, but only to a certain level — to the extent that a twelve-year-old could handle responsibly.

Sometimes when we go to God and we want certain things, the Lord says, “No. You’re not ready to receive this because you don’t know what you’re asking.”

I’m learning that as my faith grows, and as I mature in the faith and trust God for bigger things, He says, “Okay, Alex, you are ready for this.” And so He grants certain things to me. The Lord will give you what you can handle.

Do you remember when James and John are walking with Jesus and they said, “When we get to heaven, can I sit on your left? And can I sit on your right?” And Jesus turns and he says, “You don’t even know what you’re asking.”

Because the Lord sees it in totality — He sees the suffering coming. He sees the shame but also the glory that He’s going to have. His disciples didn’t understand that in their limited thinking.

God treats us as children. He knows where we are on the spectrum. There have been times I asked God for great things, believed He was going to give them and I was ready for them and He answered that prayer. And other times I ask Him for things, and at the time, I didn’t realize what I was asking and He said, “No.”

I’ve grown to trust Him and to say, “Lord, would you prepare my heart? Would you get me ready for the things I need to ask You for? That I can receive them and be responsible for them?”